GIFT blog

by Ruth Bell Olsson

I was recently given a necklace with the word “Ally” stamped on it. “Ally” in the sense of allied, allying, being an ally.

I thought the title was perfect. This is who I am, and also what I do.

But, what does this word actually mean?

Ally is a verb: to unite, to join, and to connect through a mutual relationship. Ally is also a noun: a person who associates with another for a common purpose, someone who supports or cooperates. In biology, an ally is a plant, animal or organism that bears an evolutionary relationship to another –often as member of the same family.

Several years ago I was asked to speak on a panel for an event titled “Gay and Christian: Believers Speak.” My friend Matt had rented out a historic theater near my house and had personally paid the upfront money to secure the date. As the evening approached, only ten tickets had sold and he was getting nervous. All of us participating knew that the lack of sales had nothing to do with interest level. Every church I encounter these days is fielding questions about faith and sexuality. This does not mean every church respondsto such questions, but they are floating in the atmosphere like dust motes. Some communities of faith let them simply linger, some create hospital-sanitized conditions in which such questions can hardly survive a millisecond. And, of course, other communities’ welcome dust as part of the fabric of living in a world that is messy and not always as neat and tidy as we would like (but usually much more interesting).

A few days before the event, as Matt was getting more and more anxious, an article appeared in the local paper profiling one of the featured speakers. A flurry of social media ensued and by the next morning the theater had sold every ticket.

The evening was incredible. The spirit in the room was one of listening and understating—not one of judging and condemning. For this, all of us on stage were incredibly grateful.

When it was my turn to speak, I introduced myself as an ally. I am not a gay Christian. I am simply a Christian. At that event, I represented a Christian who has walked alongside my LBGTQ brothers and sisters for over a decade. This journey has changed me. This journey has opened my heart in ways I never could have imagined. I found that the biological definition for ally fits me well: anorganism that bears an evolutionary relationship to another –often as member of the same family.That night all of us presenting were from the same family, the family of God. We belong to each other. We need each other. We have a tremendous amount to learn from one another.

Now, for me, being an ally has gone beyond LGBTQ into myriad other arenas of mutual relationships. As an ally I have traveled into a war zone in Eastern Congo, I have held the babies of dying mothers in AIDS clinics, I have provided platforms for women to share their voices when they have been labeled “voiceless.” I have become a vocal proponent of things like needle exchange and overdose prevention, global orphan care overhaul, and the ethics of diversity in leadership.

Aligning myself with people often found on the margins has altered my life in more ways than I can count. This has also radically changed my faith.

Jesus constantly chastised the self-righteous religious leaders and chose to associate with those on the margins. Perhaps becoming an ally is a window into what it means to be more like Jesus.

A portion of this has been posted on the GIFT blog.

 

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I was desperate, so I turned to God in total surrender.

My friend Stefany refers to her treadmill as the “dreadmill.” I think that’s the perfect name for it; running endlessly and going nowhere is certainly dreadful.

Several years ago I found myself in a season of life where I was running on a “dreadmill” of my own making. I was scrambling to hold myself together, and instead of pushing pause, I frantically dashed through painful life occurrences.

My inability to step off the machine was an enormous factor in the collapse of my marriage. My husband, Jeff, and I lost our way on the path of marital unity. We married young—the month after my college graduation—and I had a lot of growing up still to do. In this season of stress, I questioned if I was really “in” this marriage. Was there some other life out there that I was supposed to be living?

Complicating all of this was our struggle with infertility. After medical intervention (and the loss of a baby) we eventually welcomed our two beautiful …

 

Originally posted at Christianity Today

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On the front lines of HIV prevention in one of America’s holiest cities.

The woman who walked into the needle exchange that night was filled with piercings. Head to toe, she likely had hundreds of barbs and holes in her body. She held a trashcan-sized biohazard container full of dirty needles. A female volunteer met the woman an asked her about her life, her drug use, her struggles. The pierced woman shed her clothing to reveal the places she had creatively found to inject drugs. Veins stripped, she was having trouble finding more sites.

But she came to the needle exchange. And for once, she heard, “You are valuable. You are important. You are welcome. You are safe here.” She was given resources to help her take a baby step toward health. For some clients this means a referral to a treatment center, for others it means finding a safe place to sleep and a hot meal. And yet for this woman and many others, the tiny step is simply to make their next injection a non-lethal one.

Fourteen years ago, I was part of a church plant called Mars Hill. During the first week of services, over 1,000 people came and, in many ways, mayhem has ensued ever since. An early value of our congregation was to give away our resources as much as possible. So when people attended en masse and gave generously, the task of stewarding the resources felt overwhelming. A group began to pray about how to use the resources for our city and globe, and eventually we formed a global outreach team.

In the early 2000s, we were struck by how little the evangelical church was addressing the global HIV pandemic (thankfully, this has changed dramatically), and we decided to donate $1 million to AIDS relief in East Africa. However, in one of our subsequent meetings, we realized that it was hypocritical for us to care about a pressing issue “over there” without acknowledging it in our own backyard. The members of the outreach team agreed and said, “Great idea, Ruth. Why don’t you figure that out?”

Thus began my journey into the heart of the HIV/AIDS community of Grand Rapids, Michigan. In American Christendom, Grand Rapids is a holy city, akin to Wheaton or Pasadena or Dallas. Hundreds of churches, not to mention Christian colleges, seminaries, publishers, and faith-based nonprofits, operate within our city limits. We are second only to Salt Lake City in our philanthropic giving. Yet in light of all this activity and generosity, the “faithful” were scant within the HIV circles I began to frequent.

Since I needed a place to begin, I started to connect with events and organizations important to the HIV community, with the objective to “show up and shut up.” I made an appointment with the program manager of HIV/AIDS Services, Inc., a man named Dave, the organization’s only employee. I found him in a rented, closet-sized office within a building called “The Network”—known around town as the gay building. It’s in an eclectic part of GR, behind the only store that caters to customers interested in New Age materials. As I walked into the rainbow-flagged edifice for our meeting, I had a boatload of fear. It’s not that I was afraid of gay people, per se—I just didn’t know very many. The Network’s lobby was strewn with magazines and brochures about coming out, gay sex, HIV, and local events catering to the LGBT community.

I squeezed into an extra chair shoehorned into the miniscule office and began to chat with Dave about their programs and volunteer positions. He mentioned the organization’s HIV prevention efforts aimed at the demographics most at risk for the virus: gay men and intravenous drug users. He explained the work of the needle exchange and the “outreach” programs in gay bars throughout our city. He explained the philosophy of meeting people where they are and moving them one baby step at a time toward health and, in that process, informing them about HIV and how to prevent its spread. Genuinely wanting to learn about this agency and their work (my notebook and clipboard in hand matched my earnest expression), I vigorously nodded to suggest this was all familiar information.

As Dave finished his presentation, I eagerly asked, “Well, how can I help?”

Dave smiled and leaned back in his chair.

“You can’t.”

I was stunned. I am from a large church with outreach funds and a huge population of eager volunteers. How could a local nonprofit not need our help?

“How could you help? You are a straight female,” he explained. “No guy in a gay bar is going to listen to what you have to say. Perhaps you could do HIV outreach on lesbian night, but . . . .”

He had a point. And the needle exchange would not want me either. The best volunteers are former users, not church girls who have never used a needle for illegal purposes in her life. All of my good intentions and desires to make a difference were not needed. At least not here.

Salt and Light in a ‘Sketchy’ Field

That conversation with Dave was 10 years ago. I eventually became the president of HIV/AIDS Services, Inc., renamed the Grand Rapids Red Project. By continuing to “show up” and listen, stumbling and falling sometimes in my efforts, I gained the trust and love of the incredible members of the Grand Rapids HIV community. I approached our interactions with the posture of a student. Who am I to speak to the realities of those living with this virus? I had so much to learn about not only the virus itself, but also about the modes of transmission, the realities facing those individuals who engage in “risky” behavior, the politics surrounding the issue, and—of course—the strange web of shame that being HIV-positive carries in this culturally Christian city.

Sadly, in Grand Rapids it can be difficult to be in the HIV prevention world and be overtly Christian. Churches and Christians have reputations, both earned and entirely unwarranted, for being unloving toward those in the HIV community. I have been challenged to love and listen and be patient in my interactions with those who have been marginalized by HIV. This has grown my heart and compassion.

Now, as an HIV activist, I have had the privilege of representing the Grand Rapids Red Project at our annual Gay Pride Festival, on local television and radio, and at various regional events, college campuses, and national conferences. I get the chance to be salt and light and a person of faith in venues where Christians have not historically had access or influence. These opportunities, however, are not as reciprocal as I would hope. Churches other than my own rarely invite me to speak (although that is slowly changing). Even as U.S. Christians have grown exponentially in our compassion and activism for global pandemic, we still have a bit of a blind spot for the realities of “American HIV.”

Not long ago, Michigan Public Radio interviewed me about our needle exchange. What, really, is the value of harm reduction programs like needle exchanges? Aren’t we just giving drug paraphernalia to users? Shouldn’t we be encouraging them to stop using drugs? Is there something sort of backward-seeming about the whole enterprise? What does a needle exchange do?

Actually, at the needle exchange, individuals who choose to inject drugs are given the option of exchanging their “dirty” (used) needles for clean, new ones. By injecting with clean needles, the risk of transmitting a virus like HIV (or HepC) plummets. Additionally, the Red Project counsels the clients in how to prevent and reverse drug overdoses (the second leading cause of accidental deaths in our city). Lives have quite literally been saved because of these interventions. But beyond the technical details of the program lies the safety of being a place where vulnerable and marginalized people are treated with dignity and respect. The clients of the needle exchange range from homeless junkies to suburban professionals—yet everyone is treated equally. The reality is that not everyone is ready to stop using drugs. Some are—and they are referred to treatments options—but many of the clients are only ready to take that next baby step toward health and wholeness. A clean needle is often that next teeny, tiny step forward. When the clients are met by volunteers who have walked the road of addiction and have emerged on the other side, a redemptive and profound connection emerges. As “sketchy” and misunderstood as this kind of work can be, it is undeniable that there is a redemptive element at work.

And aren’t redemptive endeavors the ones Christians celebrate the most?

This is unconventional and challenging work, to be sure. Daily, however, I can celebrate what God is doing in my city under the radar. There are hands and feet of Jesus driving the mobile clinic to hard-core neighborhoods where the message of HIV prevention is needed the most. There are dedicated Christians spending time in the gay bars hearing heartbreaking stories of youth who were kicked out of their homes and churches when they came out. There are lovely men and women sharing their own stories about living with HIV and how it is not a death sentence any more, but rather an opportunity to live a different kind of life, one more in tune with the reality that life is fragile and needs to be handled with care.

I attended a Christmas party at the needle exchange last year and sat chatting with a woman at a corner table. I introduced myself in an effort to gently uncover whether she was a volunteer or a client. She said she knew who I was; she attends my church and had heard me speak about HIV a few years prior and her heart had been moved to get involved. She had been volunteering for the Red Project ever since. Salt and light. Love without argument. Reflecting the kingdom on earth one conversation and one beautiful act at a time.

Originally posted at Christian Today.

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